Made of Light

Long time no post! LIFE has been LIFING. I got married!! WE GOT MARRIED!! I’d sure say I beat my inner demon (Ghost).

The more realistic viewpoint is that I have succeeded majorly in this lifelong game against the Ghost in me (Relationship OCD), and he’s trailing WAYYY behind. He has nothing on me. Sure, there are days when he feels closer on the Health Track but he’s still several laps back, so that feeling of being temporarily defeated from time to time is really an illusion.

I got bloody MARRIED. And have been married for nearly 5 months. I’m a newlywed…planning my honeymoon as we speak. More on that later!!

The other awesome news is that I wrote a duet called Made of Light that admittedly, I wrote the first version of years before I met my wife, but the finalized one that’s on my album, Honeybe, is being received very well so far and has been featured in several music news articles, including this favorite review: Lyrical Odyssey. I also submitted it to a couple songwriting competitions this year so wish me luck!

I’m proud of the song for so many reasons. 1. One reason is that my wife is a singer, but funny enough, we do not sing together that often, so this praise has been a nice little boost for both of us, 2. The handful of times I’ve shared this song with the world before it became what it is, I didn’t feel like I received the kind of reaction I sought (which often happens to artists and that’s just something you gotta get over, or take with a grain of salt), which led me to being pleasantly surprised by the song’s success now, 3. and the most obvious reason — given that I have an anxiety disorder based around relationships — this bout of reassurance felt damn good because I never expected it or begged for it like OCD demands.

The best gifts come when you trust yourself and the universe amidst all its uncertainty and quiet wisdom.